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tarigwaemirLowell House, on the Feast of St. Denis
I'm feeling kind of depressed, mostly because I've been procrastinating so much lately (I keep doing my homework at the last minute), and also because my PCR went wrong again at the lab, which not only makes me feel dumb but also useless. ::sighs:: It's also probably something to do with the hormonal cycle. Why the heck do my moods have to be controlled by a bunch of chemicals? I find this situation terribly unjust. (Yes, I'm one of those people who believe adamantly not so much in the existence of but the need for free will and human dignity. We are more than our components!)
My request for Eats, Shoots and Leaves, the book on punctuation sticklers, came in and I picked it up on Friday. Am being tempted to read it instead of doing work, but for the next three weeks, I have midterms in all my subjects. I should start studying, but I have so little motivation at the moment. I think if I just got myself started, the situation would be better, but taking that first step is so difficult. I feel vaguely broken, somehow, after last semester, and my subconscious fear of failure is probably only making things worse. ::kicks psyche:: It's sad too, because my professors are all great this semester, and only yesterday, I went to the biochemical sciences concentration "social hour" and heard all sorts of inspirational speeches from the MCB department. >_>
I keep meaning to post all the funny Professor Evans quotes, but I keep forgetting them. Maybe I should start recording them in class. ^_^
Yours &c.
Post-script: I finally got the Windows XP update. The new pop-up blocker in IE? Thank you. It only took you how long, Microsoft?
I'm feeling kind of depressed, mostly because I've been procrastinating so much lately (I keep doing my homework at the last minute), and also because my PCR went wrong again at the lab, which not only makes me feel dumb but also useless. ::sighs:: It's also probably something to do with the hormonal cycle. Why the heck do my moods have to be controlled by a bunch of chemicals? I find this situation terribly unjust. (Yes, I'm one of those people who believe adamantly not so much in the existence of but the need for free will and human dignity. We are more than our components!)
My request for Eats, Shoots and Leaves, the book on punctuation sticklers, came in and I picked it up on Friday. Am being tempted to read it instead of doing work, but for the next three weeks, I have midterms in all my subjects. I should start studying, but I have so little motivation at the moment. I think if I just got myself started, the situation would be better, but taking that first step is so difficult. I feel vaguely broken, somehow, after last semester, and my subconscious fear of failure is probably only making things worse. ::kicks psyche:: It's sad too, because my professors are all great this semester, and only yesterday, I went to the biochemical sciences concentration "social hour" and heard all sorts of inspirational speeches from the MCB department. >_>
I keep meaning to post all the funny Professor Evans quotes, but I keep forgetting them. Maybe I should start recording them in class. ^_^
Yours &c.
Post-script: I finally got the Windows XP update. The new pop-up blocker in IE? Thank you. It only took you how long, Microsoft?
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