Pre-exam panic
Oct. 24th, 2004 08:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tarigwaemirLowell House, on the Feast of St. Anthony Mary Claret
I can't study. I can't study. What's wrong with me? I can't concentrate or focus or study! Argh! ::panics::
I suddenly have the urge to hit something with a shinai. Preferably a men. Not anyone's particular men but just any men as stress relief. Argh! (Apparently kendo has become my brain's way of dealing with academic stress. Who knew?)
I don't know why, but sometime around dinner, I started feeling absolutely miserable, and the feeling hasn't abated. I put on music, I moved to my bed, I tried practice problems and textbook reading, but I still feel unhappy. Why? It's biology. I actually understand the practice problems (unlike chemistry). I do need to study but it's not overwhelming. I can handle it if I could just focus. ::beats head against desk::
I can't even procrastinate properly. I went looking for fanfiction, but I couldn't concentrate and the awkward sentences irritated me more than usual. I've been refreshing my friends list every half-hour, but people don't update that quickly. I checked my email but there's nothing but a notice from Professor Evans announcing that he'll end class five minutes early tomorrow since the majority of the class will be taking the biology midterm afterwards (thank you, Professor Evans, I may understand very little of what's going on in your class, but you're an absolutely wonderful person, and this generous gesture convinces me of that). Argh! I need to calm down and do some breathing exercises.
Yours &c.
I can't study. I can't study. What's wrong with me? I can't concentrate or focus or study! Argh! ::panics::
I suddenly have the urge to hit something with a shinai. Preferably a men. Not anyone's particular men but just any men as stress relief. Argh! (Apparently kendo has become my brain's way of dealing with academic stress. Who knew?)
I don't know why, but sometime around dinner, I started feeling absolutely miserable, and the feeling hasn't abated. I put on music, I moved to my bed, I tried practice problems and textbook reading, but I still feel unhappy. Why? It's biology. I actually understand the practice problems (unlike chemistry). I do need to study but it's not overwhelming. I can handle it if I could just focus. ::beats head against desk::
I can't even procrastinate properly. I went looking for fanfiction, but I couldn't concentrate and the awkward sentences irritated me more than usual. I've been refreshing my friends list every half-hour, but people don't update that quickly. I checked my email but there's nothing but a notice from Professor Evans announcing that he'll end class five minutes early tomorrow since the majority of the class will be taking the biology midterm afterwards (thank you, Professor Evans, I may understand very little of what's going on in your class, but you're an absolutely wonderful person, and this generous gesture convinces me of that). Argh! I need to calm down and do some breathing exercises.
Yours &c.
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Date: 2004-10-24 05:54 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2004-10-25 08:32 am (UTC)Still, you sound so on top of things in your journal. I mean, half finished with all your double major requirements? I'm not even doing a joint concentration, and I still have a long, long way to go.
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Date: 2004-10-25 09:55 am (UTC)I think a lot of Hunter students were "corrupted" much earlier on -- you are one of the fortunate ones =).
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Date: 2004-10-25 06:58 am (UTC)your fellow kendo-ian
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Date: 2004-10-25 08:24 am (UTC)Yay, one more kendo-ist on my LJ friends list. Welcome to LJ!
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Date: 2004-10-25 04:40 pm (UTC)I hope your midterm goes/went well! ::waves hana-riffic pom-poms in the air!::
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Date: 2004-10-25 08:44 pm (UTC)