Complaining
May. 12th, 2005 12:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tarigwaemirLowell House, on the Feast of the Carthusian martyrs
I really hate myself when I mismanage my time this badly. On the other hand, I really, really didn't expect the dinner tonight to run that long. Still, I had plenty of time to get my work done beforehand. It's amazing how much my work ethic has slipped in the past semester. I'm severely disgusted at my own apathy. So much for an attempt at regaining perspective. I think I'm going to try to set an agenda for the summer (outside of research, of course) after all and try to learn something constructive. (Well, I was planning on learning hanja and attempting to read all four great Chinese epics before, but that's a bit recreational, and I didn't exactly intend on forcing myself to stick to it. I think though that I really should make myself prepare for physical chemistry or some other subject bound to be the bane of my life next year.)
(Also, I've recently realized that I probably have to take the GRE subject test next spring. O_O The general tests are available at any time of the year, but the subject tests are administered three times, none of which are during the summer. >_>)
Anyway, now I have to actually start studying for exams, which is stressful but at least relatively straightforward, and a part of me really does want to hole up in the library for a while. I had a master study schedule planned, but since I'm already days behind on it, I think I'm going to rearrange it. Tomorrow morning that is. >_<
Why am I updating my LJ when I don't have a fic to post? That being said, am outlining the DN fic as well as idly sketching out the story that I meant to post for Hikaru no Go day (05.05.05) last week but never got around to, well, actually writing. (Come to think of it, I've been trying to write this story for years, and it's in its third incarnation. At the rate I'm going, I'll never finish.)
Yours &c.
Post-script: You know, a Korean-American junior at Harvard recently published a book comparing Harvard to Seoul National University (the top uni in Korea and my father's alma mater) after spending a semester doing study abroad there. It's currently a bestseller in Korea (is anyone surprised?) and has some interesting assertions to make. What interests me though is how the heck someone has the time to write a book? She's a joint economics/CS concentrator, and I've actually met and spoken with her (in fact, she's the one who let me know about the conference that will allow me to make my all-expenses-paid visit to Korea this summer). It just flabbergasts me that with all her courses, extracurriculars and whatnot, she also managed to write a book on the side. It's awesome and humbling, all in one go. Plus, I think the book's written in Korean. O_O And here I am, with a normal courseload and probably the least work this reading period out of all my blockmates, and I'm doing a horrible job just trying to study for school.
Post-post-script: Despite all the whining in this entry, I don't actually have all that low a self-esteem. I'm just annoyed with myself, and reading period always makes me feel depressed and insecure.
I really hate myself when I mismanage my time this badly. On the other hand, I really, really didn't expect the dinner tonight to run that long. Still, I had plenty of time to get my work done beforehand. It's amazing how much my work ethic has slipped in the past semester. I'm severely disgusted at my own apathy. So much for an attempt at regaining perspective. I think I'm going to try to set an agenda for the summer (outside of research, of course) after all and try to learn something constructive. (Well, I was planning on learning hanja and attempting to read all four great Chinese epics before, but that's a bit recreational, and I didn't exactly intend on forcing myself to stick to it. I think though that I really should make myself prepare for physical chemistry or some other subject bound to be the bane of my life next year.)
(Also, I've recently realized that I probably have to take the GRE subject test next spring. O_O The general tests are available at any time of the year, but the subject tests are administered three times, none of which are during the summer. >_>)
Anyway, now I have to actually start studying for exams, which is stressful but at least relatively straightforward, and a part of me really does want to hole up in the library for a while. I had a master study schedule planned, but since I'm already days behind on it, I think I'm going to rearrange it. Tomorrow morning that is. >_<
Why am I updating my LJ when I don't have a fic to post? That being said, am outlining the DN fic as well as idly sketching out the story that I meant to post for Hikaru no Go day (05.05.05) last week but never got around to, well, actually writing. (Come to think of it, I've been trying to write this story for years, and it's in its third incarnation. At the rate I'm going, I'll never finish.)
Yours &c.
Post-script: You know, a Korean-American junior at Harvard recently published a book comparing Harvard to Seoul National University (the top uni in Korea and my father's alma mater) after spending a semester doing study abroad there. It's currently a bestseller in Korea (is anyone surprised?) and has some interesting assertions to make. What interests me though is how the heck someone has the time to write a book? She's a joint economics/CS concentrator, and I've actually met and spoken with her (in fact, she's the one who let me know about the conference that will allow me to make my all-expenses-paid visit to Korea this summer). It just flabbergasts me that with all her courses, extracurriculars and whatnot, she also managed to write a book on the side. It's awesome and humbling, all in one go. Plus, I think the book's written in Korean. O_O And here I am, with a normal courseload and probably the least work this reading period out of all my blockmates, and I'm doing a horrible job just trying to study for school.
Post-post-script: Despite all the whining in this entry, I don't actually have all that low a self-esteem. I'm just annoyed with myself, and reading period always makes me feel depressed and insecure.
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Date: 2005-05-12 05:16 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2005-05-12 03:44 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-05-12 06:25 am (UTC)I was thinking that only a madman would think that reading all four Chinese epics would be recreational... but then I read about the book-writing Korean-American junior, and I realize you aren't comparing yourself to mere mortals.
Even just reading a section of a Chinese epic (complete with explanatory notes, etc) makes my brain ache. ^_^;;
I think you aren't doing as badly as you think.
Good luck with the exams and have fun!
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Date: 2005-05-12 01:08 pm (UTC)But thanks very much! I'm feeling better after a good night's sleep.
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Date: 2005-05-13 12:46 am (UTC)Glad you feel better!
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Date: 2005-05-12 05:13 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-05-12 05:22 pm (UTC)Does any of that overlap with you? ::hopeful::
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Date: 2005-05-12 09:02 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-05-17 05:22 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-05-13 03:06 am (UTC)Haha, just wanted to share that. :-) Hope to see you around!
-Winmar
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Date: 2005-05-14 01:48 am (UTC)