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Prom and other news
Jun. 16th, 2003 02:44 pmAd Mundo Exteriore,
I haven't written in a long time, and now that I find the time to blog, I start blabbing about prom. Apologies to those who find such things exasperating.
Let me be completely honest. I don't like parties for several reasons, but the most crucial one happens to be that I have trouble dealing with large groups of people. I'm not only referring to my misanthropic tendencies but also my difficulties with socializing and making small talk and (as clichéd as it may sound) fitting in.
I'm not even talking about fitting in with normal people. I have trouble belonging to any group, even one as idiosyncratic as the Hallway. It's nothing to do with the usual teenage drama about wanting to be myself. My social problems are the result of a major culture clash and a hereditary sense of reservation. I'm not shy, and in fact I can be very loud and even somewhat outgoing at times once I get started. But still, I don't form close ties with a lot of other people easily.
Which brings me to my point. Prom was better than I expected, because there were some fun moments like having my hair put up into a bobby-pin-and-hairspray sculpture and trying to remember how to swing dance with Tryo-chan. But other than those moments, the prom really just reemphasized to me how easily I feel left out of things. I don't blame my friends because they certainly did their best to include me, but it was hard for me to just walk in and be included. I can't jump into an ongoing conversation, I can't go up to people and say hello (though I made an honest attempt at it), I can't even make small talk with passing acquaintances. I'm very glad that I didn't go alone or it would have been pretty awful.
But since Tryo-chan was there and I had someone who didn't mind talking to me while everyone else was dancing to awful music, it wasn't too boring and I lasted the four hours fine. I was terribly sleepy when I got home though. Oh, and Mr. Randolph made me dance with him, which was a rather interesting experience. Mr. Randolph's idea of dancing is flailing his arms and capering to the beat, so I just stepped about in my ridiculous heels and flailed my arms too. It was fun trying to get photographs of Lyd-chan making out with YKW. (Hah, we succeeded.)
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blottedgray and kaydeefalls tie for coolest gowns. Oneechan had her mother make her dress, and kaydee's was this vintage red dress with splotches of blue, green and gold. Oh, and we all finally got to see the infamous Davis who apparently has a crush on Angelette-oniichan. I don't quite know what I think of this potential future "sister-in-law" but I suppose I don't disapprove of him either.
I was so tired out from the stupid heels that I ended up rescheduling my flute lesson and cancelling the tutoring job for Friday. It was a pretty good weekend actually, since I finally watched the first X-Men movie and The Pianist. Also watched a lot of Naruto episodes, though I can't get to the last four because of XviD codec issues. I think my computer doesn't have the RAM or the processing speed. It freezes up whenever playing a XviD AVI file. It's all very exasperating, and I'm going to throw a fit.
I've been avoiding LJ and FF.net for the past week, though I've been on AIM often, talking to oniichan about graphics. I'm afraid I'm going to be in a skinning craze for a while. We're also starting battle graphics, though I have no idea what to do with the images I have. (It's going to be an Eriol wallpaper. ^_^) I've also been meddling around with scripts and coding, trying to figure out the best way to allow comments on Have Faith, once we move to a new server. (Currently, we've decided on a multiple blog format. But we need a CGI-BIN server before I can figure it out in more detail.) I just may finally put up a real guestbook on the Society site too, since I found a cool ASP script (very customizeable) available for copying on another Brinkster site. I don't know what I'm going to do about the guestbook for Infinity. Maybe I'll end up copying the CF script from oniichan's? I don't know how possible that is, but I can't use any other language since I don't know which is compatible with the server. Argh, if only we could get in contact with Billy-san! We just may end up having to switch domain names too if we can't find him before the end of the summer. ;_;
My graduation present from my parents is a plain gold ring custom-made from the gold in my baby rings. (There's this tradition of celebrating when an infant turns 100 days old. I think it may be a potentially ancient custom, probably left over from the time when there was a much higher infant mortality rate. It's sort of hard to rejoice over a birth if you're not sure whether the child might day in the next week or so. But perhaps after reaching the hundred days mark, the parents may let out a figurative sigh of relief and properly go around welcoming the new addition to their family. Anyway, putting hypotheses aside, I was presented with two pure gold baby rings at my 100 days party.) My parents had the jeweler engrave "DOMINUS TECUM, HANA" on the inside surface. He wouldn't accept any more than $30 because he knows us personally, but my parents are going to treat his family to dinner or something like that. I like it a lot. It reminds me of the One Ring from LotR, although it's very soft and would melt like butter in a fireplace. (And no, fiery letters do not appear when it grows hot. Sorry. No essence of Sauron here, just my baby rings.)
...Tari
I haven't written in a long time, and now that I find the time to blog, I start blabbing about prom. Apologies to those who find such things exasperating.
Let me be completely honest. I don't like parties for several reasons, but the most crucial one happens to be that I have trouble dealing with large groups of people. I'm not only referring to my misanthropic tendencies but also my difficulties with socializing and making small talk and (as clichéd as it may sound) fitting in.
I'm not even talking about fitting in with normal people. I have trouble belonging to any group, even one as idiosyncratic as the Hallway. It's nothing to do with the usual teenage drama about wanting to be myself. My social problems are the result of a major culture clash and a hereditary sense of reservation. I'm not shy, and in fact I can be very loud and even somewhat outgoing at times once I get started. But still, I don't form close ties with a lot of other people easily.
Which brings me to my point. Prom was better than I expected, because there were some fun moments like having my hair put up into a bobby-pin-and-hairspray sculpture and trying to remember how to swing dance with Tryo-chan. But other than those moments, the prom really just reemphasized to me how easily I feel left out of things. I don't blame my friends because they certainly did their best to include me, but it was hard for me to just walk in and be included. I can't jump into an ongoing conversation, I can't go up to people and say hello (though I made an honest attempt at it), I can't even make small talk with passing acquaintances. I'm very glad that I didn't go alone or it would have been pretty awful.
But since Tryo-chan was there and I had someone who didn't mind talking to me while everyone else was dancing to awful music, it wasn't too boring and I lasted the four hours fine. I was terribly sleepy when I got home though. Oh, and Mr. Randolph made me dance with him, which was a rather interesting experience. Mr. Randolph's idea of dancing is flailing his arms and capering to the beat, so I just stepped about in my ridiculous heels and flailed my arms too. It was fun trying to get photographs of Lyd-chan making out with YKW. (Hah, we succeeded.)
blottedgray and kaydeefalls tie for coolest gowns. Oneechan had her mother make her dress, and kaydee's was this vintage red dress with splotches of blue, green and gold. Oh, and we all finally got to see the infamous Davis who apparently has a crush on Angelette-oniichan. I don't quite know what I think of this potential future "sister-in-law" but I suppose I don't disapprove of him either.I was so tired out from the stupid heels that I ended up rescheduling my flute lesson and cancelling the tutoring job for Friday. It was a pretty good weekend actually, since I finally watched the first X-Men movie and The Pianist. Also watched a lot of Naruto episodes, though I can't get to the last four because of XviD codec issues. I think my computer doesn't have the RAM or the processing speed. It freezes up whenever playing a XviD AVI file. It's all very exasperating, and I'm going to throw a fit.
I've been avoiding LJ and FF.net for the past week, though I've been on AIM often, talking to oniichan about graphics. I'm afraid I'm going to be in a skinning craze for a while. We're also starting battle graphics, though I have no idea what to do with the images I have. (It's going to be an Eriol wallpaper. ^_^) I've also been meddling around with scripts and coding, trying to figure out the best way to allow comments on Have Faith, once we move to a new server. (Currently, we've decided on a multiple blog format. But we need a CGI-BIN server before I can figure it out in more detail.) I just may finally put up a real guestbook on the Society site too, since I found a cool ASP script (very customizeable) available for copying on another Brinkster site. I don't know what I'm going to do about the guestbook for Infinity. Maybe I'll end up copying the CF script from oniichan's? I don't know how possible that is, but I can't use any other language since I don't know which is compatible with the server. Argh, if only we could get in contact with Billy-san! We just may end up having to switch domain names too if we can't find him before the end of the summer. ;_;
My graduation present from my parents is a plain gold ring custom-made from the gold in my baby rings. (There's this tradition of celebrating when an infant turns 100 days old. I think it may be a potentially ancient custom, probably left over from the time when there was a much higher infant mortality rate. It's sort of hard to rejoice over a birth if you're not sure whether the child might day in the next week or so. But perhaps after reaching the hundred days mark, the parents may let out a figurative sigh of relief and properly go around welcoming the new addition to their family. Anyway, putting hypotheses aside, I was presented with two pure gold baby rings at my 100 days party.) My parents had the jeweler engrave "DOMINUS TECUM, HANA" on the inside surface. He wouldn't accept any more than $30 because he knows us personally, but my parents are going to treat his family to dinner or something like that. I like it a lot. It reminds me of the One Ring from LotR, although it's very soft and would melt like butter in a fireplace. (And no, fiery letters do not appear when it grows hot. Sorry. No essence of Sauron here, just my baby rings.)
...Tari
