Another numbered list
Mar. 17th, 2007 11:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tarigwaemirLowell House on the Feast of St. Patrick
1. Yesterday brought the perfect type of snow, the sort that falls in large, wet flakes and piles up in beautiful white heaps. The type of snow that muffles sound, erases footsteps, lulls you to sleep in a slow forgetfulness...and makes me wax poetic cliché as I walk. This morning, the snow had already begun to melt, turning into a nasty slush that forms small ponds of meltwater on the uneven brick-paved streets. I wish we could have the snowfall without the aftermath.
2. I finished my![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
imaginarybeasts submission, exactly a whole week late. >_> It's the textual equivalent of a large tangle hastily cut out from several balls of yarn thrown into a heap and walked on by cats. -_- Oh well, at least I've contributed some "historically inaccurate Regency" to the 'zine.
3. I have a midterm on Monday but haven't studied for it. Nor have I written any more of my thesis. I would feel more guilty, but instead I just feel numb.
4. I realized today that I have spent most of my senior year (ever since October, to be exact), trying to prepare myself to say goodbye to college and to Cambridge, and although I often say that I'm sick of this place after spending all my summers here, the thought of leaving it soon breaks my heart. For the past five months, I've been trying to live so that I can graduate without any regrets. Have I succeeded at all? I also often say that living without regrets is not a matter of what you actually do but how you think about what you've done, but of course, it's easy to aphorize. But there are still two and a half months left.
When it comes down to it, I know I will uproot myself without a blink and move on. But I don't want it to be so easy. I don't want to wade through life like water; I want each place, each moment to leave permanent marks on me.
5. Why am I in such an introspective mood lately? Please forgive the self-absorption. I've also been going around muttering or humming out loud to myself more than usual.
Yours &c.
1. Yesterday brought the perfect type of snow, the sort that falls in large, wet flakes and piles up in beautiful white heaps. The type of snow that muffles sound, erases footsteps, lulls you to sleep in a slow forgetfulness...and makes me wax poetic cliché as I walk. This morning, the snow had already begun to melt, turning into a nasty slush that forms small ponds of meltwater on the uneven brick-paved streets. I wish we could have the snowfall without the aftermath.
2. I finished my
imaginarybeasts submission, exactly a whole week late. >_> It's the textual equivalent of a large tangle hastily cut out from several balls of yarn thrown into a heap and walked on by cats. -_- Oh well, at least I've contributed some "historically inaccurate Regency" to the 'zine.3. I have a midterm on Monday but haven't studied for it. Nor have I written any more of my thesis. I would feel more guilty, but instead I just feel numb.
4. I realized today that I have spent most of my senior year (ever since October, to be exact), trying to prepare myself to say goodbye to college and to Cambridge, and although I often say that I'm sick of this place after spending all my summers here, the thought of leaving it soon breaks my heart. For the past five months, I've been trying to live so that I can graduate without any regrets. Have I succeeded at all? I also often say that living without regrets is not a matter of what you actually do but how you think about what you've done, but of course, it's easy to aphorize. But there are still two and a half months left.
When it comes down to it, I know I will uproot myself without a blink and move on. But I don't want it to be so easy. I don't want to wade through life like water; I want each place, each moment to leave permanent marks on me.
5. Why am I in such an introspective mood lately? Please forgive the self-absorption. I've also been going around muttering or humming out loud to myself more than usual.
Yours &c.
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Date: 2007-03-18 07:37 pm (UTC)Yay for submission! I couldn't make the deadline at all, but I'm sure yours will be great. <3
My mindset is on college apps and my upcoming senior year at the moment (we scheduled! Eeek, grade 12), but it will be insane when I graduate high school. XD
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Date: 2007-03-18 09:54 pm (UTC)Ah, hope your schedule won't be too overwhelming! I remember senior year being insanely busy, then not knowing what to do with myself right after the APs were over. ^_^
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Date: 2007-03-20 05:29 pm (UTC)"Living without regrets" made me think of Tezuka's "Let's play without regrets!"