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tarigwaemirAd Mundo Exteriore,
I hate my life. For perhaps the first time in my life, I'm feeling depressed without being sufficiently detached enough to think how ridiculous it is.
I have two finals back-to-back coming up this Tuesday, and though I've managed some very, very minimal studying thus far, I wasted way too much time procrastinating. I have roughly 36 hours to really make sure I've mastered two entirely different courses. I can't believe I'm still not feeling capable of kicking myself back to work.
I am going to finish reading over these notes tonight even if it means I get no sleep. And I will complete all those past final exams before tomorrow is done and over with. ::stares helplessly at lethargic mind:: Come on, where's the adrenaline when I need it?
They say college is about self-discovery. Discovery #1: Tari under a normal amount of pressure whines but keeps her cool and manages to scrape her act together. Tari under a mindboggling amount of pressure freezes up and goes into denial/curls up like a squirrel and sleeps.
I seriously feel like slapping myself.
...Tari
Post-script: Okay, in high school, I never had to study so hard for cumulative exams because by the end of the course I knew the material like the back of my hand to begin with. This is not intended to sound like bragging--all it took was enough self-discipline to pay attention in class and do all the homework. I may be about three-quarters of the way to that point with Rome of Augustus because at the bottom of it all there's only a handful of themes that are the "Message of the Course", but I have no idea where I am with multivariable calculus. I'm almost certain that I'll know what to do with any problem thrown at me, but I have no idea whether I'll carry it out correctly.
Post-post-script: Now might be a good time to go sacrifice something to the minor demideity of academia. Hm...sacrifice > Greco-Roman gods > fate and heroes...
I hate my life. For perhaps the first time in my life, I'm feeling depressed without being sufficiently detached enough to think how ridiculous it is.
I have two finals back-to-back coming up this Tuesday, and though I've managed some very, very minimal studying thus far, I wasted way too much time procrastinating. I have roughly 36 hours to really make sure I've mastered two entirely different courses. I can't believe I'm still not feeling capable of kicking myself back to work.
I am going to finish reading over these notes tonight even if it means I get no sleep. And I will complete all those past final exams before tomorrow is done and over with. ::stares helplessly at lethargic mind:: Come on, where's the adrenaline when I need it?
They say college is about self-discovery. Discovery #1: Tari under a normal amount of pressure whines but keeps her cool and manages to scrape her act together. Tari under a mindboggling amount of pressure freezes up and goes into denial/curls up like a squirrel and sleeps.
I seriously feel like slapping myself.
...Tari
Post-script: Okay, in high school, I never had to study so hard for cumulative exams because by the end of the course I knew the material like the back of my hand to begin with. This is not intended to sound like bragging--all it took was enough self-discipline to pay attention in class and do all the homework. I may be about three-quarters of the way to that point with Rome of Augustus because at the bottom of it all there's only a handful of themes that are the "Message of the Course", but I have no idea where I am with multivariable calculus. I'm almost certain that I'll know what to do with any problem thrown at me, but I have no idea whether I'll carry it out correctly.
Post-post-script: Now might be a good time to go sacrifice something to the minor demideity of academia. Hm...sacrifice > Greco-Roman gods > fate and heroes...
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Date: 2004-01-25 08:59 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-01-26 11:22 am (UTC)...Tari
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Date: 2004-01-25 10:08 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-01-26 11:23 am (UTC)...Tari
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Date: 2004-01-25 10:54 pm (UTC)::huggles::
don't worry... you KNOW you're going to get through this [it's just one of those hana things cos you = superwoman!]. it seems like a bottomless pit of doom now but in a week, you'll be poingingly happy that those darned finals are over! =)
[if i sound ubercheery, it's because i, like everyone else, believe that you'll pull through with flying colors. i bet you know it too =)]
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Date: 2004-01-26 11:25 am (UTC)...Tari
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Date: 2004-01-25 11:04 pm (UTC)::glomp::
I lie.
Reminds me of Alan Shore on "The Practice," who refuses to hug his clients, but will occasionally grope them.
Have enough sleep. Otherwise you cannot process your memories and you have bad memory. I sometimes question that, because I would get plenty of sleep and not remember a thing, and because Mother repeatedly tells me so and thus I must experiment with it, but recently a TV commercial for sleeping pills told me that sleeping increases memory so it must be true!
Speaking of which...sleep~
O.o
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Date: 2004-01-26 11:29 am (UTC)Nah, I'm getting more used to hugs. Kind of. Well, I may not hug back, but I can be hugged...I think.
I do plan on getting enough sleep tonight, since the finals are tomorrow, but the only question is whether I'll be finished with the studying and ready to go to sleep by that point. Bedtime is midnight. Oh well. Whatever. I just need to pass, right? And it's not even as if my parents care about my grades anymore (they say, just make sure you eat all three meals and graduate).
...Tari