Whine, rant, whine

[tarigwaemir]

Ad Mundo Exteriore,

Actually, my mood would better be described as "flabbergasted". What a nice word. I am flabbergasted. The worst essay I've written since perhaps eighth grade just got an A from my expos preceptor. I must conclude either that I ought to lose all respect for her immediately or that by my miraculous luck she happens to be the easiest preceptor for the course. Or perhaps a variation on the latter--maybe she's being forgiving because it's the first essay. I suppose I can't let my guard down after all...

But it's a bit shocking after all those horror stories about expos. I mean, I spent far more time on my first essay for College Literature last year (with Dr. Miller, the easiest teacher in the English Department) than on this one. See, that essay also received an A, but Dr. Miller told us that she all gave us one grade higher than what we would receive in an actual college literature course, which meant that what I actually deserved was a B. -_- (Well, I have to admit, it was a terrible essay.) It would really be sad if Dr. Miller, of all people, has higher standards than my expos preceptor. Of course, if that turns out to be the case, I most certainly won't complain about it anymore. ^_^

I've looked over the essay again, and yes, it's just as bad as I remember. I'm surprised by my ability to even remain coherent--I think I wrote the bulk of it from about three to seven o' clock in the morning. I should really stop doing that with expos assignments. (I stayed up all night yesterday too, in order to read The Mysteries of Udolpho and write the second pre-draft assignment. Ended up falling asleep around seven only to wake up at nine and realize that I was going to miss chemistry again. ;_;)

I've been in that hyperactive state that comes after an all-nighter this morning, and I stayed awake during linear algebra again. Big mistake. Watched our sleep-deprived TF fumble his way through explaining Gram-Schmidt and make two huge mistakes in one of the examples. Usually, I refuse to participate or make a sound other than yawning out of general principle (passive resistance! nonviolent protest!), but I gave in and pointed out one of the mistakes before he went too far and really drove me out of my mind. On most days, I fall asleep and wait for him to notice the mistake and correct it, but, ugh, I just had to be awake today. Maybe I should stop going to section altogether. The class has already shrunk to about five or seven people (it expands on days when we have to hand in problem sets), and yet, even today, one of the remaining "survivors" told me that he too will abandon ship and go to Andy Engelward's section instead.

::sighs:: Didn't I promise myself that I'd refrain from complaining endlessly about school in this LJ? College life really is pretty much a series of broken resolutions...::strikes mock-cynical pose and expression::

...Tari

Comments

[offtheshoulder.livejournal.com]

Yes, stop complaining ... and I loved College Lit -- it was one of my favorite classes at Hunter, although I was so intimidated by the seniors (I took it as a junior) that I never participated in class. It was a relaxing and enjoyable class, wouldn't you say?

[troisroyaumes]

Oh yes, definitely. Easiest English class I had since ninth grade. ^_^ I adored the readings too.

Unfortunately the juniors in my class were not intimidated at all and kept saying stupid things. That was the only drawback. ^_^

...Tari

[offtheshoulder.livejournal.com]

Hahaha ... well, we WERE the best class our profs had had in years, remember? Can't expect them all to be as angelic as we were =).

[offtheshoulder.livejournal.com]

Shoot, I said profs. I meant teachers.

[troisroyaumes]

LOL, you've been corrupted. ^_^;;

And yes, we were the best class. '04 is especially dumb, on the whole, although '05 is more promising.

...Tari

[offtheshoulder.livejournal.com]

I can attest to that! I "hated" both '02 and '04, but '05 was a little more like us =).

[nikolai521.livejournal.com]

You went to Hunter College High School in New York? I met someone in my forum class who went there, and she happens to be a freshman at Georgetown. Maybe you know her?

[troisroyaumes]

Yes, I did go to Hunter. ^_^ If she's a freshman, I probably do know her, since there were only 187 people in my graduating class. I forget who went to Georgetown though...what's her name?

...Tari

[rimedragona.livejournal.com]

... I don't mind reading about complaints... maybe it's because I think of you as a friend, of a sort, and that makes me tolerate things I wouldn't from someone else. And you have a way of making even your complaints sound interesting. (it could also be that I'm in an amiable mood right now. ^_^)

But it's up to you. I like hearing about what is going on in the lives of those I know. ^_^

[troisroyaumes]

Thanks! Well, as I said before, it's more for my own sake that I want to stop complaining--I just want to look back on my LJ and not think, "Wow, she spent all her college years stressed out about work." I do like to share what's going on in my life, but I suppose what I really dislike is that I spend so many entries obsessing over my grades. >_<;;

But it's nice to hear that I don't bore people and even nicer to hear that you think of me as a friend. ^__________^

...Tari

[rimedragona.livejournal.com]

^____^ *dance*

[delentyevox.livejournal.com]

Adding to the many, congrats on Expos! *cheers* :)

[troisroyaumes]

Thanks! ^_^

...Tari

[blenrock.livejournal.com]

hehe.. an A? very, very wow. quique had similar "complaints" last semester with your preceptor. heh. :)